It was a rough night with disrupted sleep, but I bounced out of bed ready to move my body!
I headed to The Yoga Barn for a Yoga + Weights class then grabbed a delicious grilled veggie scramble for breakfast.
I didn’t have time to finish up my gift shopping since I was expecting my driver and still had some last minute packing to do. So I grabbed a turmeric tonic to go and headed to my villa to freshen up and check out.
Gede (one of my drivers here) arrived with a smile as usual and was kind enough to drop my friend Louise off at her new villa in Ubud on our way out of town.
I feel so fortunate to have met this sweet soul 16 days ago in the Taiwan airport. It’s been a Godsend to have someone to share meals, laughs and experiences with and she was the perfect person to do these things with.
Louise has a kind heart and an infectious laugh. She has a zest for life and adventure, which is what drew me to her in the first place. She’s easy to room with too, bonus! 🙂
I was sad to say goodbye, but we vowed to stay in touch and get together back in the states. She’s a Cali girl (San Fran), originally from Colorado. I sure do love my CO peeps!
As Gede and I drove off, I reflected on the past 2 weeks experiences.
With mixed emotions, I said goodbye to a place of beauty… although not a place I see myself returning. Contrary to the opinions of everyone else I have known to visit Bali (especially Ubud), this hasn’t been a life-changing culture, community or landscape for me. I am so glad I came, but am also so eager to go home.
I think a week in Asia is about enough for me. I’m okay with that.
It took about an hour and a half to get to Legian, a town next to Kuta (party central). While I will not be out partying with the Aussie’s (this is apparently their playground), it is nice to see some familiarity here. Because it’s a big tourist hub, they have been sure to bring in some Americanized shops, etc. And I’ll admit, I am ready for some normalcy.
Pullman Bali Legain Nirwana is a 5-star resort across the street from the ocean. The infinity pool looks out across the never-ending water line and the grounds are lush, beautiful and inviting.
I was welcomed by cheerful employees eager to make my experience positive. I was happy to see a Christmas tree in the lobby, decorated with Seahawks colors, nonetheless! I was feeling rather sad not to have decorated a tree this year or partake in any holiday festivities, so this was a nice treat to walk into.
As I waited for my room, Robby (his real name, which he found funny being that it was so Western – he’s originally from Gili T, an island outside of Bali that I visited my first weekend her and LOVED!) took me around the hotel showing me where things were. As always when checking in, I was given a glass of cold lemongrass tea to sip.
10 minutes later, I was escorted to my room on the top floor overlooking the garden, pools and ocean. It felt so good to have a dose of luxury, especially at the tail-end of my trip when I am ready to come home and get back to my routine.
It was clean, the AC was cranked and the patio was surely a place to read and journal.
I unpacked, did some work and headed to the pool… it was time for some sun since the rains were holding out for the time being.
View from my room over the ocean
There were families and couples enjoying the cool breeze and warm sun.
This was exactly what I was hoping it would be…
It took 16 days for me to feel at peace on this trip.
THIS was it.
THIS is the place I was supposed to end this trip because THIS place brings me serenity, calm and provides a sense of ONENESS with nature for me.
I don’t know if it’s because I am a fixed water sign… or because I was raised surrounded my rivers, lakes and the ocean… or because every memory I have where I feel most alive and free involves some body of water…
But being in the presence of such beauty puts me at ease.
It makes my soul sing.
It makes my heart dance.
It reminds me how connected we all are.
Happiness for me is THIS moment.
I am so glad that this is the place I decided to spend the week of Christmas on my own, reflecting on the last year and all the changes.
I’d be lying if I said there weren’t some emotions that have come up today.
Being alone for Christmas is well, lonely.
But I have chosen to use this experience to my advantage and make the most of my time here. While being alone during the holidays is NOT my favorite thing… it’s helped remind me that I am strong and my vulnerability is necessary to GROW.
I miss the traditions of the past 11 years. Stockings on Christmas Eve. Christmas movies and driving around looking at lights. Walks in the cool breeze with tea and mittens. Ice skating in Coronado. Shopping for loved ones. Wrapping gifts. Picking out our yearly ornament.
So much of what made the holidays special was having someone to share those moments with.
Now, those moments are all mine. And while this has its perks, I prefer sharing these things. With a partner. With my lover. With my best friend and the person who knows me better than anyone.
Waking up on Christmas morning and making breakfast together… opening gifts together…
This year is different.
But so am I.
After a walk to the beach to check the waves (planning to surf while I’m here) and a quick sweat sesh in the hotel fitness center, I came back to my room to work a bit before bed.
Universe, thank you for blessing me. Thank you for loving and supporting me and providing me the strength and courage needed to do what I needed to do this year to live an authentic and abundant life. Thank you for reminding me that I am worth my desires and I don’t have to settle for mediocrity. Thank you for instilling in me the beliefs that we can have all that we crave in this life and that only we have the power to make these things happen. Thank you for being there when I feel like I can’t take one more step and for holding me up and dusting off my wings to lighten the load as I prepare to fly.
2015, you have been one the hardest years of my life. As I wipe tears from my cheeks tonight, I bow in gratitude for the lessons this year has brought and I trust that all that has been brought forth in my path serves a purpose. There is no doubt in my mind that the best is yet to come. Thank you, thank you, thank you… for all of it.